No one will remember your name.
So first off a little disclaimer.
If you are prone to feeling very sad or otherwise have a history of you
know darkness and acts toward yourself which society would deem as horrible I don't recommend
you watch this video like if you are the type person to get depressed or
whatever.
Please stop watching this is intense.
I've been thinking a lot.
My life is an ongoing existential crisis as I was talking to one of my patrons today on a one on one chat.
But I need to talk about this because I feel like you know it's very healthy to
just be honest and to just express yourself and to tell people exactly who you are.
I went to a Patreon meeting in Seattle recently and while I was there I was just so fed up like I hid it very well.
But it's like we are just a bunch of fish struggling to eat food.
You know just people in general not pastry IMs or anything like that.
But like we're like a bunch of fish in a barrel.
OK.
We're so desperate to get our little piece and to keep on surviving.
You know we all just want to make it.
But my question is what are we making it for? What are we fighting for?
What are we so desperate for? You know we're we we're all put here.
We didn't volunteer for this.
As far as we know we we're all just thrown into this world and look what we got.
We have a clock ticking down till the day we die and then that's it.
Right.
Unless you're religious and that's just made up there's thousands of religions.
You know, the majority are made up.
Maybe there's one or two that are accurate.
I don't know but the majority are definitely complete bonkers.
OK so let's just hypothetically say that there isn't necessarily some amazing plan.
You are born in this world to random parents OK maybe you're in a drug
saturated neighborhood and so you're more prone to use drugs or wind up being a druggie
society will look at you call you a scumbag and you really didn't have any
power in it because you were overwhelmed you got addicted because your mom was addicted
and when you were born and then you had to go through all those withdrawals
or whatever.
Maybe they kept juicing you up because they're maniacs you know or maybe you were born into a rich family.
So automatically people look at you as if you're better than everyone else
even though you didn't really get any of that.
Like our president.
Born into wealth.
You know.
How it was really even better than any of us? How are any of us better than
any of us? Like This is something I want to point out a little side tangent as a lot of
people point out my age on a regular basis they say Onision on your X years old
and you act like this still and I'm like Have you seen the person who runs our
country? Like I know people twice my age who act half as mature as I do.
It's this delusion that people think Man adults really know what they're talking about and
there's like the occasional immature adults but no adults really have their act together.
No they don't.
We are we are a mess.
I've met so many adults who still can't even hold a relationship a lot of them are your parents okay.
They can't even maintain a relationship at their age.
And you know it's not always their fault.
Sometimes your significant other dies and you are put into a swamp
of really bad choices there are partners to move on to there are circumstances.
I get that but the ultimate point of this video is just to
ask some important questions and these are questions that involve your very mortality.
My question is let's say you become a millionaire someday.
Why? What was the point?
Let's say you become rich and famous.
You make a million movies.
You know you're just like on your own every Marvel film you're the guy who
plays Thor the guy who plays the lead Guardians Of The Galaxy or whatever.
Chris Pratt you're that guy ok everybody loves everyone thinks you're great.
What is the real difference in your life.
You're a millionaire and lots of people recognize you wherever you go.
You get harassed at the grocery store you don't get your groceries anymore by yourself.
You have someone go do it for you because you're so freaking famous
but the problem is is that you're going to die like everyone else.
And it's all going to go away.
Everything that we have in life is rented.
We own nothing absolutely nothing is owned.
Ok maybe our bodies I guess like we write it until it dies.
You know we get it like we own that kind of.
But even that is temporary is my point.
So I'm asking you guys what is the difference between that kid in high
school who ended his own life and you right now still living on?
You know what is the difference? That guy's gone and he's going be forgotten and
you are too and maybe you did a few more things in between then.
But like what did that person do in their lives? Maybe they accomplished more
things than you maybe they lived just as long as a life is you.
As far as activities accomplish.
And what are those activities what do they even matter in the end.
What was the point of anything.
Think of all the people who who did amazing things in the past.
All the people who you know help push our ability to fly into space.
OK.
People who have helped discover solar technology people who helped invent the computer etc..
Let's say we start discovering other planets.
Let's say we actually do explore the universe.
What is the point? What is the point? A little happiness
that we feel? Happiness is just results of our brain's programming.
That it. The
love? Don't get me started with love.
Ok is it you think it's a coincidence that we just happened to primarily love the opposite gender?
Like if you took a girl's personality put it in a boy's body that same now boy approaches you and
has exact same soul mate qualities that you and this girl you think you'd still fall for them.
No.
You're commanded by your body that you were born with beyond your will.
We are puppets designed to live an absolute nonsense life OK? And it just blows my mind that we are playing along.
I still play along.
You want to know why I don't just quit? Because I don't see the point.
I don't see the point of anything.
You know people say you know off myself every single day and I see that and I'm like
, what's the difference? If I'm tortured every day for the rest of my life or not tortured.
If I just in my life today or whatever what difference does it make?
I may as we'll try to have fun or at least just you know constantly run my mouth and see how many people I can upset.
What is the point.
You know like I can eat that crap load of ice cream for the rest of my life.
And that sounds better than ending it because know it's going to end anyway.
Why the rush.
You know everyone you've ever hated everyone you've ever loved were all going to die.
Okay and it's going to happen relatively soon like in the big spectrum of things like
the big perspective yeah we're little specks and nothing in the timeline of the universe.
OK we think that we're special but have you ever gone to the zoo
and compare us to apes where nothing compares to those apes and they are
so advanced like you don't really understand how intelligent these other animals are and
how much they parallel our behaviors and we treat those animals just because they're
slightly less intelligent than us like they're nothing and if they're nothing and we're only
slightly more intelligent than them especially those advanced apes monkeys or whatever.
We're only a little bit more intelligent enough to speak I guess at least then what is the real difference?
If we think they're nothing we're basically nothing too. Just
think about it.
Think about how much people obsess over their lives how important they think they are.
Then hop in a plane and look down on a little insects down there living
their little lives thinking their problems are so huge when really it's all nonsense.
Now I want to close with something that may be a bit uplifting to anyone that I have helped push into a state of horror.
The universe has to make sense on some level right.
Like there are moments where you'll say something totally rare.
Like I'll say you haven't heard about the Grrr from Invader Zim and forever.
Right.
Grr from Invader Zim.
Sometimes when this happens when someone brings up something totally rare that they haven't heard in
years just comes up it will come up the next day or a few hours twice.
Okay why do things come up multiple times in a short span? Unless there's something
weird going on you know like incidences occur like you'll think of somebody that you
haven't thought of in years right? You just randomly think of them like why did I
think of them? And then literally be at the mall you were at.
Hours later and you'll see them you'll go what how does this happen in
the universe where I thought of someone and then boom there they are?
Like there's so many incidences in our lives that happen that we
just can't explain it because it's like it's not we're not psychic.
So like we knew we would encounter these people in the future.
It's more so that something is beyond coincidence like there's a coincidence I can't share
with you guys because it's a little too personal but it's so one in 30
million chance of happening in my life that's way beyond those examples I just can't
even.
There has to be some explanation for it.
You know it just can't be random.
So this leads me to believe.
All these coincidences that happened throughout my life and the lives of
people I know that are repetitious superpower level coincidences I have to
think that there's something you know maybe we are building towards something
maybe this life isn't just we're born and then we die.
I personally prefer to believe that cattle OK the cattle that we slaughter in the
billions could very well be reincarnated people or are creatures that haven't yet become people
or are evolved to the level of people something that would explain the meaning of all this.
You know reincarnation would be like.
There it is.
That makes sense.
Maybe we're stuck on this planet and it's like Sicesca, a word that people
hate who don't like me because I invented this whole religion when I was
17 it was more like just like a concept of the world.
But it was this idea that you're stuck on Earth and Earth is 50 percent good 50 percent bad.
And then there are other worlds where if you're bad in this life you get demoted
to another world that's like 80 percent bad and 20 percent good and if you're really
good then you go to a world that is like 70 percent good and 30 percent
bad until you are just divine and you're alive and then you go to 100 percent good.
And that would be heaven.
OK that's a heaven planet in this universe right? This concept makes
it like OK so we're building to something we're building to bliss.
We're building to a state of existence that is incredible that is really just going to be
like OK I'm never going to die now and all my loved ones are here for good.
And I finally found my state of pure happiness and I can live like this
for all eternity because what is the point of existence and not to be happy.
Right.
We can't be truly happy on this planet not with how many things happen every single day unless you
dig a hole in the ground and have infinite food supply and just shut yourself off from the world.
And I don't know play Pokemon all day for the rest of eternity if that's what makes you happy.
But you have to completely alienate everyone in the world to
be truly happy because there are so many infectiously toxic people.
I can be very toxic myself.
That's probably why I'm on a 50/50 planet.
But my point is is that with this consideration that our existence is absolutely ridiculous.
There's no purpose and these coincidences that are beyond my explanation beyond most
anyone's explanation because the mathematical impossibility are near impossibility of these things.
It leads me to believe that there is something there is a point to
all this and we are building towards something and the reason we aren't allowed
to know or the reason that we haven't been told no divine being has
intervened and said hey this is the story to all of it is because we have
to get there based on the quality of our souls or whatever's inside of
us alone.
You guys know dogs have different personalities.
Pigs have different personalities.
Your fricken parakeet has a different personality than the parakeet next to it.
A lot of times like even fish can have different personalities.
What are these personalities.
Except for something that is beyond our control.
Something that maybe is a supernatural instance and not just a coincidence a divine intervention a
creation of maybe what we are evolving to become the creators one day who knows?
Anyway I just wanted to share these thoughts with you guys because this has been bouncing around in my
head today and it really upset me like if we don't have a purpose then we have madness.
Ok and I feel like religion despite how horrible a lot of them can be save people from their own toxic worries.
You know save them from the endless abyss that is...
Ignorance.
And I know that's funny and to pair religion with ignorance in a non parallel way but maybe
ignorance is thinking that there is nothing because if there's nothing then what's the point?
What is the point? There's a reason for this camera.
There's a reason for this jacket.
There's a reason for my haircut.
There's a reason for most everything and our reality you're saying there's no reason for our existence?
That doesn't make sense you understand? It doesn't make sense because I
mean what? We should all just jump of a bridge that I mean what's the point.
People who truly believe that there's no point to anything.
I don't know man.
It would be really hard to live that way and I know because I'm often on a believer like that.
Hopefully you got the end of this video hopefully you heard my whole rant.
If you're a person you can take it.
Thank you so much for listening to me this means a lot to me.
OK in the meaningless existence that we have.
This means a lot to me probably because I'm not programmed to feel that way, anyway, boob squeeze.
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