Six months in rehab! what is it like? I'm going to let you know! Welcome back to down
under and the South was Border! Before I go any further why don't you hit
subscribe so you can catch up on all the great stuff that this channel has to
offer. So I've recently come up to my halfway point at 180TC, a rehab in the Blue
Mountains of Australia. I'm very sorry for my infliction in my accent, that
makes it sound like I'm asking a question even when I'm not. It's just an
Australian thing. I'm up to the halfway point. I don't
have to stay here, but I probably will or I might not, I don't know. Things are going
pretty well on the whole. My first two months were really hard. You have
to do a bit of a digital detox. No phones, no computers, no internet, not much
contact with your friends and family on the outside, you don't get any leave for
the first two months, and only one 15-minute phone call a week, so, yeah it is hard. It
is especially hard for someone who thrives on creativity especially in
the digital realm and on the Internet.
However, as luck would have it at 180 TC there is a media department! How wierd is that?
I was actually able to pretty quickly get my hands on some video
cameras, video editing software and actually start teaching a media skills
class! That's pretty awesome! Who would have thought that I get to practice my
teaching skills and my media stuff? Stuff I can impart on to other people to tell
their own stories and make their own YouTube channels, to be a great influence on this
wonderful world that we live in. It has also been really hard not being able to
access Facebook, Messenger and whatsapp have a lot of friends
overseas, I can't make a phone call to, but I have written some letters, that's kind of
of weird, but cool.
Hello Sebastian, kisses! I guess this little bit of a digital
detox has made me think more about my social media escapades. I'm gonna make
really good content that helps people. I want to actually engage with you, I want
to engage with you on social on YouTube on all those things.
I'm more into quality engagement and quality video. With social media, like
anyone else, I was addicted to comparing myself with everyone else's
highlight reel, comparing it to my behind-the-scenes footage, which doesn't look
that great at the moment. It was nice to get a bit of space, to put
social media and it's the useful place. I do miss my tribe. I miss my
friends. I miss my social misfits. I miss my lovely friends. I am surrounded
by brothers, I've got a lot of really strong friendships here, but yeah I
miss the weirdos, I miss the freaks.
I just miss my tribe. I miss Netflix! Oh my god I miss Netflix so
fucking much! But at least I can just think of them saving
up. There a year worth of quality television! My god, can you imagine? I can!
And I'm looking forward to it! Don't tell me what happens with anything! I'm not
even going to tell you what I like, so you can't spoil it for me!
So what do I actually do in rehab? Lots of things! And lots of nothing too. Living
with 40 other dudes in the forrest, people who are at varying levels of being cooked,
this has its challenges, but I've also made friends for life.
Hi friends! It's a crazy, diverse bunch of guys from all kinds of different
backgrounds. I'm the only gay in the village at the moment. I think?
There's a lot of counselling, there's a lot of classes, there's a lot of stage work,
which helps you with dealing with your underlying issues before substance came
into the picture. We train, we do a lot of sports, we go into the pool, we go to the
river, we explore the wilderness, we do chores. We do manly things! Another interesting part of the
program is the spiritual aspect. So I may have mentioned Hillsong in another video
at some point. Well, that's the church they take us to here. It is
a little freaky at first, I can tell you now. But hey they actually do a lot of
good, they're not exactly taking money away from people that don't have
it. They're all pretty affluent there. ONE80TC wouldn't run without it. They do a
lot of good things for a lot of people struggling, so I can't really find a
fault. Do they have some kind of involvement with Gloria
Jeans Coffee? They can probably up their coffee game. Also, have you seen the
production values of that place? Good production values are next to godliness
apparently! It's cool man, I've had some pretty intense spiritual
experiences in here and at church which I can't explain.
I've had a series of strange coincidences that have led to a strange
conclusion that I could not have guessed. I can look back at
my life, at certain events, like meeting Bernardo. That was a God thing I think,
or the universe, or whatever you want to call it, but it seemed like it was like this
thing has to be, this thing has to happen! I've had a few things like that.
Hey man it could be a collective hypnosis for all I know, I could have
drank the kool-aid, but, I don't know it tastes good! I'm
definitely not a cookie cutter Christian. I'm still very sex positive, I have some
reservations about marriage. I think it's a way of trading goats to other people's
fathers more than anything else, but I recognize what Jesus has done
in my life, now and in the past. I guess I'm Christian with
Buddhist inclinations, I think that's the best way to put where I stand at the moment.
But more on the whole spirituality stuff in another episode, that's way too much
for this one. What am I actually hoping to get out of the next six months?
Well, I guess building my spiritual side, getting to know God a little better.
I wouldn't say sanity is going to be happening anytime soon, but hey!
Sanity is for ordinary people, but I am feeling a hell of a lot better in my own
skin. I've had plenty of success in here, I've had some real real triumphs, but
I've also had setbacks as well. I guess the big question is will I ever
drink again? I don't know, but I can never get drunk or annihilated, just
to stop feeling anything. I have to be present every day for the rest of my
life, I have to enjoy every moment with everyone. I have to feel connected with
people! I can't use isolation, I can't use work, I can't use self-harm,
I can't switch off, I can't disassociate, I can't drink to oblivion, that I can't
do! I'm using this time to address the wounds of the past but also to focus on
the future, a future better than anything I could have dreamed of! I'm studying how
to teach English as a foreign language, not just so I can travel or not so I
can just move in with the boyfriend in Mexico or something like that. I'm doing
this to help people, I'm going to actually make a difference in the world!
I could do this in a refugee camp, I can do this anywhere! I am actually
going to be a force for good out there, and I want to give back, I want to give
back to a world that's given me so much! I'm going to do that by using my skills I'm
learning as a teacher and the media skills I can hope
to impart, to help some of those people to help them tell their stories. I'm going
to be able to teach English as a foreign language,
that's going to be something that's going to help people out of their
economic situations and give them a whole new world! I can't wait
to learn Spanish! The Spanishverse! There's so many books and so much
poetry and so many people to meet that don't speak English! It's a whole other
world! The Espenolaverse! and I hope that these videos, by being
my authentic self and showing what I'm going through as a struggling human
being, as we all are, that I can help create some solidarity out there. And I
can help bring different communities together, people that might not always
see eye to eye. Maybe Christians and people in the LGBTQ community who don't
always see eye to eye, obviously. To help reconcile people
with each other and just show us all as struggling humans that are slowly
getting better. So, why am I being so public about all this? Well, it's not
actually to be the centre of attention as you may think.
I've been defined, consistently over the years, by how I fit into other people's
lives. I'm a good little boy, or the pretty boy, or the handbag, or the victim,
or the crazy guy, or even as Bernardo's boyfriend. Although we had
our shared dreams for the future, at least initially I was just going to be
defined as Bernardo's boyfriend. I was to move to his country, probably inherit some of his
friends and family and all that kind of stuff, and it would have been weird I think.
It's time to make my own mark in the world, so the next half of the journey is
going to be consolidating what I've learnt already and really planning for
the future, where I'm going and what I'm going to do. I have such a confidence in
the future now, you have no idea! Before yeah I was going to do it, but it was
kind of a pipe dream still. But now, I'm like "No this IS going to
happen man!" And I'm very excited about it! My whole life people have been trying to
take away my agency, my power in situations, and they've been largely successful.
Even taking away my freedom, and some of them are attempting to do it now, but
now is my time, and I fucking love myself way too much to let that ever happen
again. so I'm going to make a difference with my teaching skills and with my media
skills, and with just being my authentic self with people. In the next few months I'm
going to finish my English teaching certificate and I'm going to start
looking for jobs in Colombia and in Mexico, wherever! It's going to be brilliant and
I'm going to take you with me! So if you want to support me at this time, please
send me a message, leave a comment below, and subscribe to the channel! Please
subscribe! I would subscribe to you, you know that! Just keep me in your prayers,
give me your best wishes, whatever. That would mean a lot to me. I'm going to
start posting regularly again, finally finishing telling my story of how I
got here, and every couple of weeks I'll give you an update of how I'm going in
here. it's great to be back guys, love you all!
Adios Amigos!
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