Youtube daily report Sep 19 2018

welcome to my channel

in this video

i'm going to show you how to propagate the Rhipsalis cereuscula

common names coral cactus and rice cactus

Rhipsalis is commonly grown indoors

we can propagate the rhipsalis by stem cuttings or separation and side branch cuttings

it's a two years old cactus

i just removed the soil

and then separate its base stems

next

i'm going to re pot the separated plants in cactus pots

now

putting some cactus soil which is well drained and contained nutrients

cactus soil mix is combining regular potting soil with sphagnum or coco coir/peat and orchid bark or gravel to ensure proper drainage

after plant it in the pot just place some stones on the top soil for balancing the stem

next method to propagate it by side branch cuttings

i'm going to prepare the pot to propagate it

then

separate the side branches by hand pinching or we can use clean and sharp knife or blade to cut them

now i'm pinching the side branches

next planting them all in the cactus soil

after repotting, keep them in indirect sunlight or indoor or low light places

side branch cuttings will be rooted within two weeks

Rhipsalis does not prefer in direct sunlight

exposure to afternoon sun can burn the leaves, turn them yellow, or lead to spotting

Rhipsalis prefers morning sun and full shade in the afternoon

next watering to the rhipsalis

pour water every three days and regular watering is essential in hot summer

check before watering by pressing your finger into the soil to a depth of half an inch

postpone watering if the soil is moist

Over-watering can cause weak stems and rotted roots

size of the pot compared to the size of the plant, the humidity levels in the home

and

the type of potting soil used can all affect the watering frequency

thanks for watching

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"Try To Own The Narrative." Gay Man's Long Path To Healing After Statutory Rape By His Mentor. - Duration: 7:52.

I'm Ben.

I'm from Seattle, Washington.

I knew I was gay from about the age of 12 or so and by the time I was 17, I was getting

ready to come out.

So, there was an AIDS service organization in Seattle and I went there to do volunteer

work and a guy I'm gonna call Kurt, who at the time was about 40 years old, recruited

me to work in the public policy department.

So I was very excited about that.

You know, went in for my first day, was sort of my first foray into the real world, that

kind of thing.

I sat down at this desk and within a few minutes of sitting there, Kurt walks by and then does

this double take rather theatrically and he says, "Oh, you know, I was just walking

by and thinking, 'Who's that new cute employee?'

Then I realized it was Ben!"

It was perhaps that day or the next week that Kurt and I were walking outside in this general

kind of area of different shops and stuff where the office was and we were standing

in front of, of all places, a Jack in the Box.

He asked me if I was gay.

And people asked me that a few times in my life and I had lied up at that point and I

just didn't want to lie anymore.

Even though I didn't want this guy to be my first person I came out to because I didn't

really know him, I said that I was.

And boom, I was out of the closet in front of the Jack in the Box.

Kurt essentially befriended me and, you know, asked me to do things as part of working for

the foundation, but also we hung out outside of the nonprofit on several occasions.

Kurt was always joking, you know, to me, like, oh when did I turn 18?

And so there was this real kind of flirty sexual current was going between us.

I remember finding him attractive and he had a really fit body and I thought that was very

sexy.

It was a Sunday, it was in early March of 1996, and Kurt and I had gone to this, like,

gay gym downtown.

We sat in my car, we finished going to the gym, and he looked at me.

He said, "Do you want to go hottubbing?"

And I didn't know what he meant.

I essentially said okay and then he had me drive to this place and we pull up and it

was this, like, corny rent-by-the-hour hot tub joint.

We go in.

And I didn't have a swimsuit, all I had - and he says, "Well, just wear your gym shorts

without any underwear," which I did.

And then sort of the next step that happened, he says "Do you want a backrub, massage?"

I was like, "Okay."

And I remember lying there and having a hard-on and being really terrified that he would turn

me over.

And he did.

One thing led to another and next thing you know, my shorts are off.

We proceeded to have a sexual encounter.

We didn't have intercourse or anything, but we were in there for quite some time.

Because I was not yet 18, this was statutory rape.

The law in Washington state is that the age of consent is 16.

However, it's 18 in the event that the older partner is a teacher or someone else is in

a position of authority like a boss or something like that.

So this definitely qualified.

I talked to him, I think, the next day and he said something to the effect that we really

couldn't be friends anymore and he was cutting me off.

I was just devastated because, you know, that was what I really wanted out of this experience.

And then that Wednesday, I went in to do volunteer work and I got taken into the head office

at the foundation.

They said, "Did you have sex with Kurt over the weekend?"

I said, "Yes."

They said he's been terminated.

They did not ultimately decide to make me leave the organization - I stayed on.

The organization, I think trying to protect their liability, sent me to a counselor.

And I went to this counselor, filled out some sort of form and signed it, and went in and

told her what happened.

She promptly called Child Protective Services on me and she could not look more horrified,

more judgmental about what had happened between Kurt and me.

And then ultimately says to me, "CPS says because you're over 16, they wouldn't deal

with it so I have to call the police."

The police had to decide if they wanted to pursue the case and she had asked me, this

counselor, "Would you testify in court?" and I immediately said, "No."

Ultimately, the police called me back and they say, "We're not going to pursue the

case because you won't testify."

As I would come to learn what Kurt had done, as soon as he and I had had the sexual encounter,

he hit the ground running and told as many people as he possibly could to ensure that

he would get fired immediately, which is what happened.

Kurt had planned the entire enterprise from the start.

He had recruited me to use as a pawn so that he would have a sexual encounter with me,

which would get him fired for the organization so that he could go and get unemployment.

And then he also had planned if they challenged his unemployment, that he would say he was

wrongfully terminated because it was not in his job description to handle volunteers.

I also found out that he had AIDS - and he didn't do anything with me that would have

put me at the risk of transmission of HIV - but, putting that aside, what I would understand

from other people was that he believed that he would probably die within the next year

or so.

And the reason he wanted unemployment was he wanted to go to Paris before he died.

So essentially he had used me as a scheme to defraud the government to give him the

money to go on this swan song vacation.

Surprise, surprise, that was when the combination antiretroviral cocktails came on the market

that year and he would proceed to go on living for many years.

He ultimately died, I believe, in early 2009 of rectal cancer.

Ultimately, he did get unemployment.

They did not challenge and so all of that kind of settled out.

The guilt that I had that I essentially saw myself as this ticking time bomb that walked

in the organization and set up this huge explosion for everyone to deal with - that kind of guilt

in this sort of feeling of being a harlot and having a scarlet "A" and walking around

Seattle, having people know the story and worrying that they were going to tell my parents,

that anxiety was so damaging to me.

Years later, I was with a therapist around the time I turned 30.

He was listening to me for a long while and after being with him for some months, he kind

of dropped the bomb on me.

He said, "You know, you were abused as a teenager and I think this is been affecting

your life in the following ways…"

I hadn't, to that point, really been able to knowledge the word "abuse" because

I still felt that I had so much stake in what had happened and that my free will had led

me into the sexual counter with Kurt.

Of course it wasn't my fault, as I would come to learn.

For me, you know, coming out of this experience of having been molested as a child, as a teenager,

it's hard for me to ever know how my life might have been different without it.

I do take great comfort in telling people this story, frankly as often as I can, to

keep making it more casual for myself because it's just a long endless process of undoing

the law of silence that was erected around me after what went on between Kurt and me.

I think for me, and what I might say as a source of wisdom for other people, is working

with yourself to be able to define what happened in your own terms, and to try to own that

narrative for yourself.

It doesn't mean you have to tell anyone, and you can work through it by writing in

your journal or working with a therapist or whatever it is.

It's important to be able to define for yourself, in your own terms, what happened

to you.

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3 Players To Watch Out For In Arsenal's Europa League Clash Vs FC Vorskla | AFC News - Duration: 2:01.

1.

Alex Iwobi

The Gunners speedster has already made two appearances in the Premier League and has

a goal and an assist to show for his efforts.

Although he has not seen enough first-team action over the past few weeks, yet the upcoming

UEFA Europa League encounter against Vorskla could serve as a perfect opportunity for him

to stake his claim in Emery's first XI.

He is blessed with excellent pace and can dribble with the ball out of tight areas which

makes him a player to watch out for on Thursday night.

2.

Bernd Leno

Since the German keeper's arrival from Bayer Leverkusen earlier this summer, most Arsenal

supporters thought that he would be starting in goal for the Gunners on a weekly basis.

However, Petr Cech has managed to keep him out of Emery's first-team until now, and

it seems like Leno will finally get his opportunity to shine for his new employers against the

Ukrainian giants in midweek.

3.

Mohamed Elneny

The Egyptian midfielder had been a spectator ever since Emery's appointment last summer.

He has struggled to break into the Gunners first XI even though the form of Matteo Guendouzi

and Granit Xhaka has been questionable.

It is quite likely that Elneny might get a rare start at the middle of the park versus

FC Vorskla which would be a great chance to prove his worth in front of the Arsenal faithful

at the Emirates Stadium.

The 26-year-old is quite capable of playing in a deep-lying, holding midfield role which

has been a problem area that Emery could look to address in the upcoming matches.

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S. Korean leader gives deep bow to bewildered N. Korean citizens - Duration: 1:28.

Upon his arrival in Pyeongyang…

President Moon bowed to the North Korean citizens gathered to welcome him.

This gesture might have surprised many of them because it's rare for a person of such

stature to bow to North Korean citizens.

Ro Aram explains.

As President Moon walked down a red carpet laid in front of the crowd, he showed his

gratitude for the welcome with a deep bow.

Although this is common courtesy in South Korea,… for North Koreans, a deep bow is

only reserved as a sign of upmost respect for someone in a position of authority.

Moon's interaction with the crowd didn't stop there.

In contrast to Kim Jong-un's wave of the hand,... the South Korean president approached the

citizens and shook hands with several people in the front row.

North Koreans could be taken aback by this, as it would be unthinkable for them to receive

a bow, let alone come into contact, with a world leader.

It would be even more unimaginable if it was the North Korean leader, who is a deified

figure.

Pyongyang's state media aired a program a few years ago, on the basic mannerisms that

North Koreans should follow.

It says a deep bow of nearly 90 degrees which President Moon displayed, is only to be used

for the North Korean leader and his family.

Political experts say Moon's modest demeanor could have a more powerful and lasting effect

in changing the North Korean public's perspective of the South than millions of propaganda leaflets.

Ro Aram, Arirang News.

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GONE FISH'N // Jenny Lynne T - Duration: 8:18.

... snail friend he was floating around and we brought him back to life. "

Amanda: I don't think he wanted to live. Jenny: I don't think so either. Amanda: He's like, "Screw you guys.

Good morning friends today we're going fishing.

We are meeting Amanda and Patty (A.K.A. Panda King) at Milo McIver State Park

and taking out their boat

we haven't been on the boat yet so

they are treating us.

There's Jacob. (Jacob laughs)

(OS) Jenny: Patty's van that brought the boat.

Jacob: This motor's got some scoot to it. Patty: A little bit.

(OS) Amanda: it's good enough (Amanda laughs). Jacob: That's all you need, is enough.

(Patty is inaudible)

Woo!

And we off!

(Music)

(Still just music)

(OS) Jenny: Amanda, what's the name of your boat?

Uhh, Sloth's Revenge.

(OS) Jenny: Why is it called that? Amanda: Because of the Dirty Head's song. (Jenny laughs)

(OS) Jenny: That's awesome

Amanda: And we're... (OS) Patty: And it's slow. Amanda: And it's very slow.

And we're gonna paint an octopus on it.

(Music only)

(Look at the blue heron!!)

We are taking a break to use the restroom.

I've gotten one bite and that was it.

We haven't caught anything... which.. I'm okay with.

actually like catching fish.

I just like hanging out. hole and we thought it

(OS) Jenny: ... pole, and we thought it was lost forever. (OS Patty is laughing)

(OS) Jenny: We are hoping...

(OS) Jenny: His float was... ugh.. He happened to be using a float

at the time so hopefully hopefully.... (OS) Amanda: Annnnndd...

(OS) Jenny: Hopefully it was locked too so you're not just running out all of your line. (OS Amanda is laughing)

(OS) Jenny: So we might get the fishing pole back. (OS) Patty: Oh yeah.

(OS) Jenny: We have the hope... It might not be locked, huh?

(OS) Amanda: It might have UN-locked..

(OS) Amanda: HEYYY!!! (OS Jenny gasps loudly)

(OS) Jenny: Yeah!!! Fishing pole!

(OS Patty is laughing)

Jacob: Well.. That was a fun development to the day.

(OS) Jenny: That's very fortunate!

(OS) Amanda: I'm glad we were.. we were all staring at it at the same time..

Jacob: Well, it needed a wash anyways.

(OS) Jenny: Well.. um.. good thing you were using a bobber.

Oh. I shouldn't be doing that.

(OS) Amanda: We should all bobber up.(laughing)

(OS) Jenny: We all need the Wii-Mote...

Yeah, the Wii-Mote holders.

There was like that two seconds like, "Well f**k, how could I have caught it?"

"Well, there's a floater.. THERE'S A FLOATER!" (OS the others are laughing)

(OS) Amanda: That was so cute!!

(OS) Jenny: We're hoping to see it again but there was a little

fishy chasing after a bug. It was all "Bloop, bloop, bloop, bloop, bloop, bloop, bloop."

(OS) Jacob: There was a foot of jump on him too!

(OS) Jenny: But, of course, right when I pulled out the camera, it stopped.

maybe it got the bug. (OS) Amanda: No, the bug went too high. (OS) Jacob: The bug was like "ahhh," (OS) Amanda: "I see what you're doing"

(OS) Amanda: Aww...

(OS) Jenny: You need to hold on, buddy.

(OS) Jenny: I don't think he's doing too well. (OS Amanda giggles)

(OS while laughing) Jacob: This is.. ugh.. a... average day for me.

(OS) Jenny: Uhhh.. a little more than average for me.

We got a snail and a Cast Master.. a "Cast King" (a type of lure)

We got a snail friend. He was floating around and we brought him back to life.

Amanda: I don't think he wanted to live. Jenny: I don't think so either.

Amanda: He's like, "Screw you guys."

Here you go buddy.

No! Don't go... He keeps wanting to jump off. Amanda: awwwooo

No!! (In tune of "Come Sail Away" by Styx) I'm gonna snail away with me!! (Amanda is laughing)

(OS to tune) Jacob: Come snail away! Come snail away!

Jenny: Come and snail away with me!

(OS) Jacob: Woooo!!!

(OS) Jenny: Com'on, walk the boat. Walk the boat!

Amanda: Don't walk the boat.

(OS) Jenny: woooo (Amanda is laughing)

(OS in tune to "Build Me Up Buttercup" by The Foundations) Jenny: Why don't you load me up, buttercup baby..

(OS) Jenny: Am I too heavy?

I was too heavy for him to load the boat with me in it. (duh!)

So now I'm on the back of the van because it's... I don't want to get... wet.

(Amanda is laughing)

(OS) Patty: Come to this side

Jacob: I said "Toss it to me," not "HAND it." (Jacob laughs)

Amanda: You got the phone?

(OS) Jacob: Yey! She survived.

(OS) Jenny: Little spider buddy. Look at that little face. It's so cute.

(OS) Jenny: So what did we catch today?

Nothing!

Patty: We caught a buzz and a good time.

(OS) Jenny: Yes.

did we catch today nothing yes we had a

We had a good time. It was nice out. Some times it was cold

but the Sun came out and it was nice.

We're heading over to Amanda and Patty's to drop off the boat.

and we're gonna go get some ice cream

do you have anything to say, Jacob?

Maybe they have fresh fish ice cream.

Oh, yeah. Yeah! In case you know.. to satisfy our

need to have fish, we'll have fish ice cream....

(OS) Jenny: Ice cream!

(OS) Jenny: Yum. What flavor did you get?

Caramelized banana. (OS Jenny gasps) Jenny: What? (OS Amanda laughs)

(OS) Jenny: Then Jacob got got salted caramel chocolate.

(OS) Jenny: basic (OS Patty laughs) (OS) Amanda: (sympathetic) aww..

Jacob: Thanks honey. Thanks for the vote of confidence. (OS) Jenny: I would I would have gone that... (OS) Amanda: Would you like an IPA with that? Jacob: I love you too.

I would like an orange spice IPA

(OS) Jenny: You mean a "Pumpkin spice?"

No. I want an orange spice, I'm different.

(OS) Jenny: which one was yours? Amanda: Earl Grey and blueberry.

(OS) Jenny: And I got a raspberry buttermill.

I'm going to go ahead and end the vlog right here.

I hope you have a wonderful evening and I'll see you next time. Bye!

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'Hi-tech shoplifters' nabbed thanks to licence-plate cameras - Duration: 2:23.

'Hi-tech shoplifters' nabbed thanks to licence-plate cameras

'Hi-tech shoplifters' nabbed thanks to licence-plate cameras.

  Two women carrying devices to thwart metal detectors in store entrances have been arrested after a months-long shoplifting spree at Cape Town malls.

Police said the women‚ aged 37 and 46‚ were nabbed on Monday at a mall in Plumstead with the help of licence-plate recognition cameras and neighbourhood watch patrollers.

The alarm was triggered when the women's dark grey car was seen in the area‚ and they were arrested as they left the mall‚ where the anchor tenant is a Pick n Pay.

"The suspects were found with home-made devices to deflect metal detectors at the exit points of the store as well as various food consumables that could not be accounted for by means of proof of purchase‚" said Constable Zak Marais‚ of Diep River police station.

Police searched the women's car and found food and clothing stolen from nearby shopping centres.

  "Video footage from the respective nearby stores showed several of the items having been allegedly stolen by the same suspects.

The management of these stores were traced and notified immediately and case dockets were registered‚" said Marais.

It was also found that one of the two suspects was wanted on an outstanding warrant of arrest in Johannesburg.

Marais said the women‚ who had struck at malls in the northern and southern suburbs of Cape Town‚ posed as shoppers.

One pushed a trolley and kept a lookout for cameras and guards‚ while the other stole from the shelves and other shoppers.

The women will appear in Wynberg Magistrate's Court on charges of theft and possession of stolen goods.

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"Try To Own The Narrative." Gay Man's Long Path To Healing After Statutory Rape By His Mentor. - Duration: 7:52.

I'm Ben.

I'm from Seattle, Washington.

I knew I was gay from about the age of 12 or so and by the time I was 17, I was getting

ready to come out.

So, there was an AIDS service organization in Seattle and I went there to do volunteer

work and a guy I'm gonna call Kurt, who at the time was about 40 years old, recruited

me to work in the public policy department.

So I was very excited about that.

You know, went in for my first day, was sort of my first foray into the real world, that

kind of thing.

I sat down at this desk and within a few minutes of sitting there, Kurt walks by and then does

this double take rather theatrically and he says, "Oh, you know, I was just walking

by and thinking, 'Who's that new cute employee?'

Then I realized it was Ben!"

It was perhaps that day or the next week that Kurt and I were walking outside in this general

kind of area of different shops and stuff where the office was and we were standing

in front of, of all places, a Jack in the Box.

He asked me if I was gay.

And people asked me that a few times in my life and I had lied up at that point and I

just didn't want to lie anymore.

Even though I didn't want this guy to be my first person I came out to because I didn't

really know him, I said that I was.

And boom, I was out of the closet in front of the Jack in the Box.

Kurt essentially befriended me and, you know, asked me to do things as part of working for

the foundation, but also we hung out outside of the nonprofit on several occasions.

Kurt was always joking, you know, to me, like, oh when did I turn 18?

And so there was this real kind of flirty sexual current was going between us.

I remember finding him attractive and he had a really fit body and I thought that was very

sexy.

It was a Sunday, it was in early March of 1996, and Kurt and I had gone to this, like,

gay gym downtown.

We sat in my car, we finished going to the gym, and he looked at me.

He said, "Do you want to go hottubbing?"

And I didn't know what he meant.

I essentially said okay and then he had me drive to this place and we pull up and it

was this, like, corny rent-by-the-hour hot tub joint.

We go in.

And I didn't have a swimsuit, all I had - and he says, "Well, just wear your gym shorts

without any underwear," which I did.

And then sort of the next step that happened, he says "Do you want a backrub, massage?"

I was like, "Okay."

And I remember lying there and having a hard-on and being really terrified that he would turn

me over.

And he did.

One thing led to another and next thing you know, my shorts are off.

We proceeded to have a sexual encounter.

We didn't have intercourse or anything, but we were in there for quite some time.

Because I was not yet 18, this was statutory rape.

The law in Washington state is that the age of consent is 16.

However, it's 18 in the event that the older partner is a teacher or someone else is in

a position of authority like a boss or something like that.

So this definitely qualified.

I talked to him, I think, the next day and he said something to the effect that we really

couldn't be friends anymore and he was cutting me off.

I was just devastated because, you know, that was what I really wanted out of this experience.

And then that Wednesday, I went in to do volunteer work and I got taken into the head office

at the foundation.

They said, "Did you have sex with Kurt over the weekend?"

I said, "Yes."

They said he's been terminated.

They did not ultimately decide to make me leave the organization - I stayed on.

The organization, I think trying to protect their liability, sent me to a counselor.

And I went to this counselor, filled out some sort of form and signed it, and went in and

told her what happened.

She promptly called Child Protective Services on me and she could not look more horrified,

more judgmental about what had happened between Kurt and me.

And then ultimately says to me, "CPS says because you're over 16, they wouldn't deal

with it so I have to call the police."

The police had to decide if they wanted to pursue the case and she had asked me, this

counselor, "Would you testify in court?" and I immediately said, "No."

Ultimately, the police called me back and they say, "We're not going to pursue the

case because you won't testify."

As I would come to learn what Kurt had done, as soon as he and I had had the sexual encounter,

he hit the ground running and told as many people as he possibly could to ensure that

he would get fired immediately, which is what happened.

Kurt had planned the entire enterprise from the start.

He had recruited me to use as a pawn so that he would have a sexual encounter with me,

which would get him fired for the organization so that he could go and get unemployment.

And then he also had planned if they challenged his unemployment, that he would say he was

wrongfully terminated because it was not in his job description to handle volunteers.

I also found out that he had AIDS - and he didn't do anything with me that would have

put me at the risk of transmission of HIV - but, putting that aside, what I would understand

from other people was that he believed that he would probably die within the next year

or so.

And the reason he wanted unemployment was he wanted to go to Paris before he died.

So essentially he had used me as a scheme to defraud the government to give him the

money to go on this swan song vacation.

Surprise, surprise, that was when the combination antiretroviral cocktails came on the market

that year and he would proceed to go on living for many years.

He ultimately died, I believe, in early 2009 of rectal cancer.

Ultimately, he did get unemployment.

They did not challenge and so all of that kind of settled out.

The guilt that I had that I essentially saw myself as this ticking time bomb that walked

in the organization and set up this huge explosion for everyone to deal with - that kind of guilt

in this sort of feeling of being a harlot and having a scarlet "A" and walking around

Seattle, having people know the story and worrying that they were going to tell my parents,

that anxiety was so damaging to me.

Years later, I was with a therapist around the time I turned 30.

He was listening to me for a long while and after being with him for some months, he kind

of dropped the bomb on me.

He said, "You know, you were abused as a teenager and I think this is been affecting

your life in the following ways…"

I hadn't, to that point, really been able to knowledge the word "abuse" because

I still felt that I had so much stake in what had happened and that my free will had led

me into the sexual counter with Kurt.

Of course it wasn't my fault, as I would come to learn.

For me, you know, coming out of this experience of having been molested as a child, as a teenager,

it's hard for me to ever know how my life might have been different without it.

I do take great comfort in telling people this story, frankly as often as I can, to

keep making it more casual for myself because it's just a long endless process of undoing

the law of silence that was erected around me after what went on between Kurt and me.

I think for me, and what I might say as a source of wisdom for other people, is working

with yourself to be able to define what happened in your own terms, and to try to own that

narrative for yourself.

It doesn't mean you have to tell anyone, and you can work through it by writing in

your journal or working with a therapist or whatever it is.

It's important to be able to define for yourself, in your own terms, what happened

to you.

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Always with me (a tribute) - Duration: 1:29.

The time has come, to say goodbye

Theres just nothing much I could do

The pens have been lifted

And the papers have dried

The time has come to say 'farewell'

We both walk different path

But our hearts race the same beat

And that we'll see each other again

I pray for your well-being

Until then, we meet again.

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 The Duke of Edinburgh, who has been married to Her Majesty for 70 years, calls his wife "cabbage"

 It is unknown where the hilarious pet name came from, but Royal biographer Robert Lacey confirmed it is in fact true

 He said: "Yes, I've heard that is how he will sometimes refer to her." During the 2006 film The Queen, as Philip Mountbatten is about to get in bed he tells his wife to "move over, cabbage

" The film's screenwriter Peter Morgan said: "I inquired in Royal circles and was told on very good authority that that is what the Duke sometimes calls the Queen

" It has been speculated the nickname comes from mon petit chou, which is French for "my darling"

 In English, however, the phrase translates to "my little cabbage". "Cabbage" is not the only nickname the Queen has

 Prince George calls his great-grandmother "Gan-Gan". According to PopSugar, British Royals have been calling their great-grandparents this phrase for generations

 American biographer Kitty Kelley claims 'Gan-Gan' was adopted by Prince Charles, Prince William, and Prince Harry to address their respective great-grandmothers

 The Duke of Cambridge said, in a documentary to mark the monarch's 90th birthday: "George is only two-and-a-half and he calls her Gan-Gan

 "She always leaves a little gift or something in their room when we go and stay and that just shows her love for the family

" Prince William funnily called Her Majesty "Gary" when he was young because he struggled to pronounce "Granny"

 Gossip columnist Richard Kay said: "The Queen was on hand after William fell over at Buckingham Palace, bawling: 'Gary, Gary'

 "A guest who went to help asked who Gary was, assuming it must be a member of the royal household

 "'I'm Gary,' said the Queen, after she picked him up. "He hasn't learned to say Granny yet

'"

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Shibamata • Ein Besuch im Taishakuten Tempel [ENG Sub] - Duration: 6:12.

Hey, everyone. Today I'll gibve you a small travel report.

Well, travel report... Let's rather say a report about a little trip.

Actually, this weekend I suggested to my husband to go to Kawasaki,

because there was an Oktoberfest. But he had a very different idea, which

should be much more cooler.

We went to Ueno and took the Kaisei Line to Takasago.

From there, we changed to the Keisei-Kanamachi Line.

Our way led us to Shibamata. The area is famous for Tora-san, a character from an old

series with the title "Otoko wa tsurai yo".

Next to the train station there is a

beautiful long shopping street. An eye candy for tourists.

And at the end of this shopping street you can find the Taishakuten Temple.

It is famous for ancient carvings, which have survived the war without

any scratches.

You have to pay 400¥, if you want to see the carvings.

The entry to the temple garden is also included.

The price was absolutely worth it, because the carvings were really

breathtaking. I have never seen anything like this before.

All these details, it was awesome.

Shibamata is really nice for a little day trip. I really recommend

this place.

It reminded me a lot of Kawagoe.

Maybe you also feel like visiting the area. I definitely recommend

a visit to the temple.

Well, that'sall so far.

I hope you liked my little video

and see you again in my next video! ♡