alright...
I need...
vanish
I need Preparation and Vanish
Prep...
AND VANISH!
JESUS! SUCH A FUCKING MLG
jugg...
OH FUCK!
OOOOHHH FUUUUCK!
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Through the Varanasi Gullies - Ananya's V Logs - Duration: 3:44.
Varanasi is the oldest living ancient city of India
draws Hindu pilgrims to wash away
their sins in the Ganges River's sacred waters
and perform funeral rites
The city's winding streets routes various temples
including the famous Kashi Vishwanath Temple
dedicated to the Hindu god Shiva
The city has beautiful hue of diverse spiritualism,
philosophy, ancient literature and mysticism
for thousands of years.
People from around the world come here
to attain peace and nirvana but thats not the
only thing city has to offer
If you are a hardcore foodie seeking for some
simplistic and pure tasty wholesome real food which
not only fills your stomach but also touches the soul
It is available only in Varanasi streets
where I visited by following recommendations
from friends, internet and books.
I started exploring the hidden gems in these streets
and my first stop was a perfect breakfast
at Babu Lal's kachori and jalebi famous for
deep fried morsels stuffed with spicy urad
daal paired with the yummiest spicy tangy
aloo channa sabji
It is soul satisfying and a best start of
the day followed by hot jalebis crispy from
outside and soft and sweet from inside
Overall a perfect symphony of flavours
Next I was strolling around the Varanasi streets and
spotted the heaps of sweets, variety of
pickle preparations, Kullad milk, rabri, other than food,
were the heaps of colourful bangles,
Varanasi sarees and decorative stuff
Time for some peppery chaat and Deena chaat for me…
They have various lip smacking chaats but the
sev tomato chaat was so unique with its
spiciness and tanginess.
The next recommended spot was Raja Raam's Kullad
lassi topped with malai and a hint of rose flavour
Really heavy leads you to a slumber
Raajbandhu famous for giant rassgulla
and malai gilori
Very highly recommended is Bati chokka at
bati choka restaurant serves a combination
of daal bati and litthi choka.
Charcoal fire lithi with variety of fillings along with
delicious chokka comprises of potato
and brinjal bharta and various accompaniments with
pickle and chutneys
Well non-vegetarians don't worry
Taj Hotel at Dalmandi
serves the best fresh chicken tikka
and unforgettable mutton stew that transports you to a
different level
This place is living its third generation era
It's USP is the taste of marination in the tikka
Stew had a balanced subtle flavours,
no garnish,
no fancy plating but just the real food
Yum!
Lastly Kashi paan Bhandar
famous for Banarasi paan
jo ek andaaz se khaaya jata hai
which melts in your mouth
If you're in Varanasi,
band akaal ka taala khule ya na khule
This is a must try
It has digestive juices that helps in digestion
A good end after a heavy meal
The foodie exploration day came to an end
with the Ganges River cruz around 88 Ghats
and each one of them has an interesting story to say!
Like all good things come to an end
my super satisfied day too came to an end
with the lovely Ganga aarti.
So peaceful
so serene
and so beautiful
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God's Answer to Your Prayer - Duration: 3:10.
I remember when one of my daughters was two.
She got into the pantry and she grabbed a bag of brown sugar.
And she brought it up to me, and held it up and said, "Eat!"
Well, what did she want?
She wanted a snack.
And so I'm a loving father and I wanted to give my child what she wants so I said, "Yes"
and I opened the bag for her, and I let her have at it,
and then I ran out of the house and screamed to my wife,
"Hey our daughter's having a snack in the kitchen. I'll be back later!"
No, no, no, obviously I did not do that, right?
That would be totally unloving.
So instead of giving her something that would be bad for her,
I answered yes to her having something to eat by giving her something healthy.
You know, a lot of times when we look at the answers that God gives to prayer,
that we very traditionally hear, "He says yes," "He says no," "He says yes, but wait."
And, and that's absolutely true from our perspective,
but have you ever looked at it from God's perspective?
This is what Jesus says in Matthew chapter 7 verse 11. He says,
In other words, if an earthly father knows what's best for his child,
and gives that child what's best,
how much more won't God, our Heavenly Father, know what we need
and give us what's best?
That's what we want anyway, right?
And that's what we're asking when we say, "Your will be done."
And we make a request, God says every single time, "Yes, I will do what's best for you."
Let me put this in perspective.
So let's say that I pray for a Lamborghini.
"Lord, I need a Lamborghini."
And God will say, "Yes, I will give you transportation."
Now, does that mean I get the Lamborghini?
Well, God knows that there are some pretty sweet country roads outside of the city I live in.
I am also familiar with those roads
and he probably knows that I would try to go about 150 miles an hour on those roads
and wrap my Lamborghini around a tree
and leave my wife and six children without a husband and father.
Now, would that be the best thing?
Probably not.
And so what does God do?
He blesses me with a 2004 Mercury Grand Marquis that has tens of thousands of miles on it.
And whenever you try to go over 70,
it kind of shakes a little bit.
Isn't that better?
Well,
I made it here today, didn't I?
God tells us this in his Word.
He says whatever promises God has made they are yes in Christ.
And so you can pray confidently.
Lord forgive me.
Yes.
Lord, provide for me.
Yes.
Lord, bless me.
Yes.
Lord, take me to heaven.
Yes.
Tomorrow we're going to take a look at when it seems
like God's saying no to our prayers from our perspective.
Let's pray.
Father, you know what's best for us.
Give me all those things I need
and help me to see the answer to prayer from your perspective,
that you are always saying yes to blessing your children.
In Jesus' name, amen.
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Steamed Muskmelon Cake | Thai Dessert | Kanom Tang Thai | ขนมแตงไทย - Duration: 1:10.
Steamed Muskmelon Cake
Shredded coconut 50 g
Salt 3 g
Tapioca flour 60 g
Rice flour 40 g
Muskmelon 250 g
Coconut milk 90 g
Sugar 120 g
Steam 10-20 min.
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Google Street View allows you to go Inside the International Space Station (ISS) | QPT - Duration: 1:21.
Google Street View now allows the users to explore the International Space Station (ISS).
For 16 years, astronauts have been working and living on the ISS, a structure made up
of 15 connected modules that floats 250 miles above Earth.
The ISS acts as a base for space exploration—possible future missions to the Moon,Mars and asteroids—and
gives us a unique perspective on Earth itself.
Because of the particular constraints of living and working in space, it wasn't possible to
collect Street View using Google's usual methods.
Instead, the Street View team worked with NASA at the Johnson Space Center in Houston,
Texas and Marshall Space Flight Center in Huntsville, Alabama to design a gravity-free
method of collecting the imagery using DSLR cameras and equipment already on the ISS.
Then the still photos were sent down to Earth where they were stitched together to create
panoramic 360 degree imagery of the ISS.
The Google Street view is giving details for some of the components in the ISS.
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Is dit de OUDSTE camping van Nederland?! | Jantine bezoekt Camping De Bocht - Duration: 4:50.
In the province Brabant,
centraly located between beautiful nature area's,
lies camping The Bocht.
A small family business, that started in 1952.
One of the eldest camping sites of the Netherlands!
It's a small camping site, with 55 places.
There are 39 spots for returning guests.
And about 20 spots for regular campers.
Most visitors are active people, that like to go cycling.
Join me!
In the middel are the regular spots, while the chalets and other places...
... are situated around the edges.
Playground for the children, or grandchilcdren.
You can go to the Efteling....
...or take a ride on this swing!
Goodmorning
Goodmorning
Goodmorning
Goodmorning
Goodmorning
There even is a small pool.
The water looks a bit green, its regular tap water.
On a hot day like this one, you can dip in.
The pool was freshly filled this morning.
With fresh, icecold water.
So I have to try it!
Change first!
They told me that the water is 15 degrees celcius, so that will be fun.
This is REALLY cold!
Nice pool you have here...
"I warned you..."
step by step...
I'm out of steps!
I'm in!
On hot days like this, you can cool off here.
Easy, you can do laundry here...
...dry it...
...or even iron your shirts.
Or your underwear...
Or your bed linnen...
I don't know, I never iron anything!
This is one of the 14 chalets they have here to rent...
... for longer or shorter stays.
We're going to take a peek inside.
Thanks!
In front of the camping is a bowling alley, with a restaurant.
The restaurant is medieval!
You can enjoy lunch or dinner here.
Or pick one of their beers!
If you're up for some action, try bowling!
I know I will!
I've hit something!
Only 1,5km away, a few minutes driving...
...lies Oirschot.
Oirschot is a lovely old city.
Over 15000 years old.
With a beautiful large basilica.
Oirschot is a small old town, where you can enjoy...
...the cultural monuments...
...or have a bite to eat.
And ofcourse: a postcard from Oirschot.
Bye Oirschot!
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Mind your Manners - Duration: 1:07.
How to Kirby, Part 7!! ^^
Yes, yes... follow me >_>
2 damage o_O That's 2 much ;)
He's backing away... he's smarter than your average Joe.
Maybe I can bait him?
This is troublesome...
I'm going to cross :^)
LMAO
Ripperoni ;3
Time to taunt ;D
Get in here!
Haha!
<-- Rip Kirby
GG~~ <3
Thanks for watching! ;D
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THERE'S A DAM ON THE LOCH , IT WAS BUILT IN 1957.
AS PART OF THAT, I BELIEVE A BUILDING OR TWO WERE SUBMERGED...
DROWNED IN THE LOCH.
THERE'S ONE CHIMNEY, TWO CHIMNEYS.
THE WATER IS PITCH BLACK!
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Use a phillips screwdriver
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Korean men react [ใหม่ ดาวิกา - I'm a Slave 4 U | Lip Sync Battle Thailand] - Duration: 4:29.
Hello everyone!
-I'm Seongbak. -I'm Taek.
Seongbak, did you see that?
What?
There is new music program in Thailand.
Oh~ what's that?
Umm, It's a 'Lipsync battle'.
Can you guess what it is?
I think I know by just hearing the title.
Lipsync battle.. We can see Thai singers' Lip sync performances of some great songs.
It must be fun. I heard it's getting popular these days.
Among them, Britney Spears's song is hot now so I bring it right away.
This song was popular in when you are younger.
Yeah... !? Is Britney Spears singer of my generation? Anyway.....!
We are gonna listen to it.
Let's go. Ready, cue!
This is it.
It's a battle.
It's quite a battle between male and female.
Don't you know this song?
The title is unfamiliar...
I'm a slave for you...
As expected, all men like this kind of performances.
I think I've heard it before.
I like it
I feel the vibe of Britney Spears's heyday from her.
You share the moment at that time...
I'm not that old....5555
Their group dance is cool too.
She is so tall.
Oh what's that?
Is that a snake???
I think so.
That is a real snake!
Oh my... that's a fake. lol
What if the snake bites suddenly?
So dangerous.
It was a short and impressive performance.
Maybe it's not the end!?
oh. It's the end..
Ending with snake.
It reminds me Britney Spears's heyday.
It's a very shocking outfit.
I agree. Britney Spears at that time was so amazing too.
I like this format. Singers perform great old songs in their own way.
'Lipsync Battle'! We want to keep watching it.
Nice to watch it.
Bye~~
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"Luke Will Always Be Just A Very, Very Incredible Person In My Life." - Duration: 6:14.
So it was the late Seventies I was living on Devisadero and saw this ad in a San Francisco
gay newspaper about a skivvies party at UC Berkeley.
And I said, there should really be some pretty interesting guys at Berkeley.
It was certainly close enough to where I was working, so after work I went over.
And it was, we left our clothes and paper bags except for our skivvies.
I found this guy on the other side of the room and he had the most beautiful chest.
I grew up really fond of hairy chests and didn't really know the meaning of it when
I was a little kid, I just thought it was an attractive, but certainly I knew the meaning
of it that night.
I had never even met anyone quite like Luke.
And it seemed, too, that he was cruising me.
I was at that point pretty good at picking up the clues.
And I was just totally fascinated with everything he had to say and missed a lot of the other
stories that was going around the circle.
Then there was a break and we were, you know, we had refreshments.
And then it was just mingling and talking to each other.
Well, I only had eyes and words for Luke.
I talked only with that evening.
At the end of the evening, and I don't know where this came from, but I just said, "Would
you like to come home with me?"
And he lived in Berkeley.
I lived on Devisadero, halfway between the Castro and the marina.
And he did.
I led the way, found parking places for both of us.
And it was just a just a magical evening.
From that time onward, I only dated Luke.
We spent virtually every weekend together.
Summers, we spent a lot of time, traveling sometimes a week at a time.
It was always very, very wonderful.
But early on in the relationship, my roommate was out for the evening and so Luke and I
were...
Luke and I were making love in the living room by the fire.
There's only only the light from, the fire light was illuminating the room.
It was it was one of the really peak experiences, certainly at that point.
I had rarely experienced anything as passionate and as sustained as that evening.
But the firelight was just so, it was like magic on his skin.
And the relationship went on for years.
I actually lost my job in California after one year.
I came back to Boston.
He had a couple of years of graduate school to do.
But during those years, we spent every Easter vacation, every Christmas vacation, because
we had similar vacation periods.
One summer vacation, we spent in Belgium with his parents at their house.
They thought we were best friends and he was not out to his parents.
We once went - we were on our bikes and Luke started undressing on his bike until he was
down to his skivvies.
This was my other favorite fantasy that I played often through the years and it still
is such a wonderful experience.
To see him almost naked on his bike was really something.
And, of course, he stayed an appropriate distance in front of me.
There's another facet to these bike trips or to these excursions to the countryside
because we were making our lovemaking, we were keeping our lovemaking a secret.
It made the lovemaking so much more valuable.
Then one spring semester, we were making plans.
We started to make plans to get together the following summer, and while we were making
plans, Luke told me that he was living with a lover, that he had found someone else, that
he had found another lover.
I needed some time to figure that out and I decided to go to San Francisco that summer
anyway.
The three of us became friends.
From time to time, I would still make love with Luke.
It was never a threesome, but the three of us were friends.
The two of them, in fact, rented an apartment for me that summer in the building where they
were living.
Luke will always be just a very, very incredible person in my life and he will always be a
lover.
And he still is an ideal and he was an ideal in the time I first met him.
So I do carry this picture with me.
And sometimes he's on a bike, and sometimes he's in front of a fire.
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Visiting A Gay Bathhouse: "It Was A Great First Time." - Duration: 5:58.
I had been in therapy to become a straight person, and part of the therapy was to date
women.
I found, actually, a very, very beautiful, a very talented woman, and had a wonderful
successful relationship with her.
Though we weren't married, we were contemplating it and I would spend weekends in her apartment
in Boston.
One weekend, she was a law student, she was off at the library studying, and I picked
up the Phoenix.
And in the back of the Phoenix, which is a local paper, I saw an ad - "Are you secretly
attracted to men?
Why not make an appointment with a Homophile Community Health Service?"
And there was something about that ad, and certainly I did not mention it to her, but
Monday morning I called and made an appointment.
I got an appointment with a therapist there who was a psychologist and also a Christian
brother.
It was quite important for me that he was Catholic and a religious person.
It made it easier to talk to him, especially because I felt that I'd given this a great
shot, you know, and it had been years and I was trying to change my orientation.
After about 3 or 4 appointments with him, it was really something I wanted to go forward
with.
He recommended that I avoid the bars.
He said that he personally liked the bathhouses.
I went to - I took up his suggestion.
And he also had a book for me - it was a story about the baths, it was a story about the
gay baths, but it was also a manual on how to behave in a gay bathhouse.
And so as soon as possible, I checked into Club Baths in Boston.
The book was so spot on.
It was like I had been here before.
So I found a locker and left my clothes and put the key on a band around my, over my foot,
around my ankle.
I grabbed my towel and I started cruising in the aisles.
Very, very early on, I ran into this extremely handsome black guy who was a head taller than
I.
And he was just amazing, he was just how handsome and so, he was such a sweet man.
And he asked if I had a room and I said, "No I don't."
And he said.
"Would you like to come to mine?"
And I said, "Yes, I would."
He was so gentle, so affectionate.
It was the first time I'd ever touched a man and certainly, just a fabulous feeling.
And as I got more and more aroused and as he did, I said, "You know, I have something
I need to tell you.
I've never done this before with a man."
He said, "Oh my god," and he was very nice about it and he said, "I'll be right
back."
He said, "Excuse me.
Excuse me just for a few minutes."
And he did come back quite quickly and we just proceeded under his direction.
He was just a very good at what he was doing.
So it really was, it really was my first sexual experience with a man and it couldn't have
been a better guy.
It couldn't have been a more positive experience and with a more worthy bed partner.
After all of this, I said, "I need to ask you a question.
Why did you - did you have to go the men's room?
Why did you leave?"
And he said, "I've never… this is the first time I've ever brought anyone out.
So it's a real privilege.
This is such privilege for people like me."
And he said, "I wanted it to be a positive experience for you and so I had to talk to
my friends because I've never done this before."
So I don't know what they said, but it certainly worked.
It certainly was positive.
You know, I never saw him again.
I didn't know enough to ask for phone numbers, I didn't know enough to set up a date.
And I often went back on a Friday night hoping that I'd run into him again.
I never did.
You know, maybe he was from Montreal.
Who knows?
Anyway, it was a great first time.
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Homework Assignment: "Go To A Singles Bar And Pick Up Women." - Duration: 3:40.
This was in 1962 or 63.
I'm a student at St John's and St John's was known as "The College Behind the Pine Curtain"
because we're surrounded by pine forests.
And to go out, you had hitchhike or walk or get a ride for three miles into St. Joe, which
was a neighboring village.
And there were single bars there.
To be a member of the monastery, it was very important at the time that - there was a cult
of masculinity at St. John's.
In fact, that abbot liked his monks to smoke cigars.
And my prefect was the nephew of the abbot and he also smoked cigars, but he liked students
to be masculine and athletic.
So my assignment was, at the direction of my spiritual adviser, to see a psychiatrist.
And the objective was to make me heterosexual or to get through the homosexual phase, which
was perceived of the time as arrested adolescence.
So one of the homework assignments was to go to a singles bar and pick up women and
then report back to the psychiatrist on the progress that I was making.
And I had some clues from my psychiatrist, kind of showed me what to do, what to say.
So I took - one of the guys had a car so I rode with them to the La.
And its short from La Playette.
And it's a dance bar and a bar and definitely a pickup place.
I found this one Benny, who, which was our name for all the girls at the St. Ben's,
which was a neighboring girls school.
She was so much fun and I like to dance and so we did and we really got on very, very
well, so I thought it was time for step two.
So now we're about to start a conversation and I totally had forgotten all my pickup
lines.
So we were talking and my first question to her was, "What do you think of abortion?"
And she left.
She just left me standing there.
And so I knew that that was definitely a faux pas and that I really had to memorize some
pickup lines.
And I got to thinking, "Why would you ask a question about abortion?"
And I kinda had to figure it out at the time that I really wanted to find out how progressive
this woman was, and was she liberal, did believe in birth control, I guess, all of these questions.
I think I probably got in a little bit over my head, a little soon.
My time was definitely off.
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Sabotaging Relationships With Women: "I Think My Subconscious Kicked In." - Duration: 4:49.
I had been trying to change my sexual orientation.
I'd been trying to be straight and so much of me really wanted a wife and family and
kids.
The first psychiatrist that I saw and, actually, every subsequent therapist that I saw, felt
that it was possible to change my orientation from gay to straight.
And I thought that it was worth pursuing.
And even though it was very expensive, I continued this pursuit.
A very bright spot in therapy was to spend summer vacations at Glacier Park, where I
worked at Lake McDonald Lodge.
And one of the reasons this was part of the homework for the psychotherapist was that
it afforded a lot of opportunities to meet women.
It really was like coeducational summer camp.
I really did made so many women and really, I almost married three of them.
All three of these possibilities - it was very, very subconscious, but I did sabotage
my - I sabotaged the relationship.
And it was very, very subconscious.
As as one example, I had talked my - one of the - I talked my girlfriend, potential fiancee,
into coming to Boston for a semester and she was not, she was teaching, so she could take
a semester off and she did just that.
And she came a little early and we checked into, we got approved for the married students
dorm.
It was a small but very adequate apartment, and it felt very much like homemaking.
She was a - home economics was her field, and this is what she taught at a high school
in North Dakota.
So she's a homemaker and she's a professional homemaker.
So we needed a set of pots and pans, so we went to Filene's Basement and picked up a
great set of pots and pans.
I thought it was wonderful and it was teflon, and as far as I knew that was the be-all and
end-all of a sudden pots and pans.
So we brought them home and we were unpacking them.
And I said, "God, I can't believe the price.
This is so reasonable and they're so great.
And this set of pots and pans will last us the rest of our lives."
And she said, "I don't think so."
It was a bad thing to say to her because she's a professional homemaker.
And she definitely knows quality pans.
She knew that WearEver was better than teflon.
She knew that steel-clad pots and pans or copper pots and pans were something that she
was dreaming of her for her kitchen because she is a professional.
She was definitely pissed.
She definitely felt that I was cheap.
But finally, the relationship did not work out.
So, in many ways, in one way, I was right - because they did last to the end of the
life of the relationship.
But Phyllis moved on and I moved on.
And we're still friends to this, day by the way.
And this was just one example, but there were other examples with very fine women.
And soon as it got too close and got too hot, there was a part of me that realized this
would really hurt her.
If I went through with this marriage, it would just end up being painful for both of us.
And so I think my subconscious kicked in.
It certainly wasn't something I've plotted.
It was just an instinct, but with her interests at heart, as well as my own.
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1961: "I Couldn't Bring Myself To Write The Word 'Homosexual.'" - Duration: 4:03.
The year is 1961. I had just graduated from high school and I was on my way to St. John's
University, which is a Catholic Benedictine college, about two and a half hours south
of where I was born. At St. John's, I was not aware, I did not know the word "homosexual."
The word "gay" was nowhere on the horizon, certainly not on my horizons in 1982.
We had, in high school, we had, there was a lot of innuendo, you know, a lot of saying,
"Oh, he's that way" or "He's the type of guy that would wear orange on a Thursday."
And I don't know where orange came from because the color is pink as everybody knows or the
color is lavender as everyone knows, but the saying at my high school was, "He's probably
orange." And I could laugh along with anybody else, but I don't know what I was laughing.
I had no idea.
And so by the time I got to St. John's, I was kind of this innocent from Cloquet,
Minnesota. I arrived at St. John's with no idea of homosexuality. The first time I heard
the word was an American Lit class. We were studying Whitman, Walt Whitman, and "Song
of Myself." And the prof gave us, and it was a Benedictine monk, gave us stories about
homosexuality and talked about Walt Whitman and his life, et cetera.
So as I read the assignments, I would put little notes in margin of my textbook, "HS"
because at that point, I couldn't bring myself to write the word "homosexual." And at
that point I wasn't even sure, so I wrote the notes in pencil, sometimes with a question
mark. But it was definitely homoerotic. I picked out all of the right passages.
Shortly after that class, I - I always studied in the library and I was sitting at one of
the tables. And I looked up from where I'm sitting and on the spine of a couple of books,
I saw the word "homosexual." And I did not want to be close to that word. For no
rational reason, I did not want to be sitting there. But I got up and moved.
I guess days later, I went back and looked at the shelf and saw how many - there was
a whole section and I actually picked up some of the books, and I never checked them out
of the library, I went to a different part of the library and read about what homosexuality
was. And unfortunately at that time, the prevailing literature was that homosexuality was a phase
and actually arrested development from the books I was reading. So it said this person
is not fully matured yet, but, you know, they will. They will. And this is something that
most adolescents go through and it's something that adolescents grow out of.
It just sounded to me like it wasn't something good, but also it was sexual. And one of the
things that happens in a good Catholic family is that you really don't talk about sex. I
often didn't get it. It just went over my head. It just felt like a word I should avoid.
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Real Food VS Gummy Food! Gross Giant Candy Challenge - Best Chef Daddy vs Diana Edition - Duration: 10:48.
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1962: Falling In Love With A Fellow Classmate In Seminary School. - Duration: 3:50.
I was born in 1943, and this happened when I was a sophomore at St. John's, so 1962.
At St. John's and in many monasteries, one is encouraged not to have special friendships.
So, a special friendship is defined as spending too much time with one person.
So the idea was to get to know everybody in your class and get to know other people on
the college campus.
So, life was progressing.
I was doing fine with my studies.
In fact, as a sophomore, I had a 4.0 average and was taking extra courses including an
honors reading program.
And, at the same time, studying philosophy, theology, reading the great books.
And life really was good.
If you wanted to enter the monastery, you have a spiritual adviser who was also a confessor.
So in one session with my spiritual adviser, I just felt that I had this on my mind and
I should really bring it up to him.
And so I said, "Father M...
I'm really concerned about this.
I'm having a special friendship with R. Not only is it a special friendship, but I think
I'm in love with R. "
And Father M said, "That would be a problem."
At that point, I have to point out I did not know the word homosexual let alone what homosexuality
was.
It was 1962 and I was from a very small town in Minnesota.
So I really didn't understand the magnitude of this or the complexities, I just know that
I had to change.
So, after a conversation with my brother who was also a member of the monastery, I went
on with conversations with my spiritual adviser, who suggested that it would be best if I would
see the monastery psychologist.
And he said, "You know, you're not the only one.
There are other people here at the monastery who are seeing the psychiatrist for the same
reason.
You're a smart guy so this is probably going to work out for you."
So that began about 6 or 7 years of psychotherapy.
Sometimes, initially it was twice a week.
The objective of the therapy was to outgrow this phase.
I'm a very hard worker and I certainly can put my mind to projects, and I have to tell
you that I did my homework and finally it didn't work.
I did get a lot of benefits from the psychotherapy.
But it is not possible to change your sexual orientation.
It just doesn't work.
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Cover of "Counting Stars" by OneRepublic - Corinne Crimson (Acoustic Guitar with Chords and Lyrics) - Duration: 4:47.
Hey, I'm Corinne Crimson Coming to you from Tacoma, Washington
This song is by OneRepublic and it's called COUNTING STARS
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby, I've been, I've been praying hard Said no more counting dollars We'll be counting stars
I see this life, like a swinging vine Swing my heart across the line
And in my face is flashing signs Seek it out and ye' shall find
Old, but I'm not that old Young, but I'm not that bold
And I don't think this world is sold I'm just doing what we're told
I-I-I-I feel something so right Doing the wrong thing
I-I-I-I feel something so wrong Doing the right thing
I couldn't lie, couldn't lie, couldn't lie Everything that kills me makes me want to fly
I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I've been, I've been praying hard Said no more counting dollars We'll be counting stars
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be Baby, I've been, I've been praying hard
Said no more counting dollars We'll be, we'll be counting stars
I feel the love and I feel it burn Down this river, every turn
Hope is our four-letter word Make that money, watch it burn
Old, but I'm not that old Young, but I'm not that bold
And I don't think the world is sold I'm just doing what we're told
I-I-I-I feel something so right Doing the wrong thing
I-I-I-I feel something so wrong Doing the wrong thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie Everything that drowns me makes me wanna fly
I've been, I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be Baby, I've been, I've been praying hard
Said no more counting dollars We'll be counting stars
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be Baby, I've been, I've been praying hard
Said no more counting dollars We'll be, we'll be counting stars
So take that money watch it burn Sink in the river the lessons I've learned
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive
I've been, I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be Baby, I've been, I've been praying hard
Said no more counting dollars We'll be counting stars
Lately, I've been, I've been losing sleep Dreaming about the things that we could be Baby, I've been, I've been praying hard
Said no more counting dollars We'll be, we'll be counting stars
We'll be counting stars
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