good morning! it's Annabelle,
and it's been a long time since I've chit-chatted.
the entire month of December was in vlogs!
and... I think that made it go so quickly, because
I was trying to edit every other day,
things were left out, or cut out- especially when I was at home I didn't vlog the way I wanted to
I got super lazy, and really into just doing nothing or hanging out with my family, so
on Christmas morning, we were trying to vlog and my camera died.
so, my sister was using her phone, I was using my phone-
then when I was editing- completely forgot that, and left out a bunch of footage.
in short you know it was a great month, a lovely time spent with my family.
it was the first Christmas where my grandpa wasn't home.
but, also the first time we were spending it with extended family. I haven't seen my cousin since...
before he hit puberty and now he's like *over here*
even though before he was like *here*
and it was really really fun having the entire two weeks with them.
and our house was so lively and filled with conversation & laughter,
I got a few presents but I really enjoy them, which I actually prefer and I don't mind at all
that I don't get so many presents, because I have enough stuff.
my sister got me a Fenty all-over glitter I believe,
because I thought it was a highlighter but it's actually called the
"diamond bomb", and I think you just put this anywhere and it's super glittery
definitely not something I use every day,
and not something I would have gotten myself.
it's kind of a treat to have. and from Tyler,
I was really not expecting this but he got me
a perfume!
it's my second perfume because my first one Dior gifted me,
now I have a collection and they're really pretty next to each other
it's bamboo by Gucci.
I sprayed it the wrong way
it's okay, it's on my hand.
I'm not really a perfume person, as in I don't have the habit of wearing perfume
but,
this scent is really nice.
my mom got me a really lovely jacket in a pinky-mauve color, that's velvet with polka dots
because she's like 'you're in textiles I knew I needed to get you something special with textiles'
so I wore that, near the last few of my December dailies,
so thank you so much mom!
aside from the little things I got her I left out that
Away sent her a suitcase.
-what could this be??
*gasp*
"one for the road?"
what is it?
omg!
it's a suitcase!!
*screams*
PURPLE! it's purple!
(her favorite color)
omg! -wow!
such a beautiful suitcase!
annabelle: there's a charger in it
mom: oh you can charge here!
there's a battery pack!
grandma: really!
thank you!
-say thank you to Away, they gifted this to you!
-really! aw
-thank you, Away!
thank you so much!
they sent this for me??
-awww
-my mom travels a lot, so I'm hoping that she puts it to good use.
and for Jason, my cousin- my sister and I bought him
a pair of basketball shoes.
mom: Wowww
grandma: is this for excercising?
aunt: it's for basketball!
velcro, super convenient! -wowww
mom: so beautiful
!!!
*laughter*
*applause*
it was really well-received, which I'm really happy about.
give me a sec-
Hi Prairie, how are you
um, you need to get in...
I don't want you sitting up here.
I used to let her sleep on top, and then she started treating it like a scratch pad so..
she lost her privilege
but she's gonna take a nap in her pram,
she's there 24/7 these days, because I have a different cat here
that I am cat sitting, and...
prairie is kind of scared of her because she's very big and strong and intimidating so
prairie's just hiding in her pram,
and Asia, which is my friend Gabby's cat, is in the other room right now but I will
have her say hello at the end-
Asia is obsessed with trying to get into my closet..
but that cat.
is HYPER.
and also kind of bipolar because one moment she wants my affection and we're spooning,
and then she'd be like *MEOOOOW*
she is definitely a special.. special special someone.
and now I'm back at school for winter session,
and the course load is really light.
I'm taking one class instead of five,
but it's a lot shorter.
so, in a month I'm gonna be going back to the spring term,
but that's why my break is quite short, two weeks which is kind of like high school breaks.
but, I do get a week after this winter session is over, and I'll be visiting Tyler.
speaking of him, he is all moved out and at his new job,
I think I see this opportunity as a really good chance for us both to have our own spaces before we have to share one and for him this
is the first time he's lived alone completely,
with no housemates.
currently, he's like furniture-less, because we ordered a couch and it won't come in
until next month..
but, it's a really good couch, I can't wait to share it with you
speaking of my winter session, I'm doing a photo intensive.
I have a lot of photos that I like,
but 90% of them aren't printed out because we had a different prompt,
and I printed them out on presentation paper- so this is not photo paper because
my photo paper was so expensive, my teacher said to save it
see I did some photography when I was in New York.
I had to take the bus from tyler's to New York City to Providence,
so it was eight hours,
I did a lot of thinking when I was on that bus
for me, these shots were about the human environment and the abundance of you know construction, and man-made objects
as our urban environment nowadays.
this is also New York- is this big topless man on a huge billboard.
I'm not sure what that was for.
one of my favorite shots though..
where is it?
it's this one, this is right before Tyler moved,
and I thought this is a really quaint photo that describes home.
oh and I totally forgot to mention what Tyler's doing-
he is an electrical engineer and his work is...
in the Applications Department,
but I think it's better for him to tell you himself when we see him next.
I'm using colored mascara so it matches my hair to some level.
that's another thing that's new-
I changed from having copper/ginger hair
into teal,
that was not my original plan because I wanted
a.......
smoky blue.
keziah, who is my hair colorist this time told me that
on the chance that my ginger does not lift out,
this smoky blue is not possible.
and as you might have guessed, it was very resistant.
and wouldn't lift, so if you actually look at a lot of
my hair down here,
there's copper in it.
but actually the first thing that we discussed when we realized that the smoky blue wasn't an option was to do
Navy, or...
really dark royal blue,
but I do not like that for myself,
I don't know why, maybe it's just because
I know wouldn't go with my clothes,
what mattered most to me was that the
value of my hair is light I don't like it too dark right now- or else I would just go back to my black hair.
so I wanted something light and this definitely fades, you can see when I put in the shampoo,
this is like cantaloupe green, almost. whereas..
down here it's a lot more aqua.
but it's okay, it's kind of like an ombre, and I know I'm gonna touch-up myself at home.
trying to get it to dry,
and then I'll put on eyeliner.
I'm not sure why I went in that order today.
I don't wear makeup so often anymore because I'm extremely lazy to take it off at night.
back in high school,
I would just go to bed right after I wipe my makeup off
with just a moist towelette but,
that is not good for your skin.
so, the more makeup I put on the longer it's gonna take to take it all off very cleanly,
that's why I've become a little bit lazy
when it comes to makeup
I'm trying to think very long-term,
and I definitely want to go through the motions
of my skincare routine every night no matter what,
so that's why makeup just adds another like 10 minutes on..
but in general, it's been great,
I'm enjoying the freedom of only having one course right now,
I've also been watching friends again, from the very first season.
I always skip that because..
it's kind of annoying and uncomfortable to watch the actors be unfamiliar
to the role and also to each other, so I always started from season two before but,
Netflix is going to lose friends next year I believe
-they're gonna take it off so, I want to watch the whole thing all over again
so sometimes I have productive days, you know I try to work out every morning now
during break, I was eating really 'well' every day
for two weeks and by 'well' I mean like going out to restaurants, and having really greasy
or salty foods,
until I was completely stuffed.
I've been having inconsistent number-twos, and stomach aches and I kept getting
acid reflux when I was back home,
so now that I am here again, one upside is that I can really watch
and exactly what I cook for myself instead of going out all the time.
and I've been starting my insanity workout again.
I have to say there's nothing as effective as insanity for me.
other thing that, I hang out with my sister a lot we have dinner together most of the time,
I hang it with Kira, and tomorrow we're all going skiing together!
my school has a Ski Club, and if you buy the ticket and rentals ahead of time we have to meet up
at around 5:30 in the morning
so that we can make a day trip out to New Hampshire to ski
I'm basically done,
and yeah what else?
I don't think this goes with it.
I'm gonna wear...
the other clip.
found it!
so for the rest of the day I'm gonna run errands, I'm gonna list more things on my depop,
and I already have a couple to mail out.
and then ..I'm gonna continue organizing my space,
I think I'm going to do some sort of tour or decorating video,
it's gonna be a lot more
'art studio' oriented because I want to do more art in my free time but it's just
really difficult to do that when everything is always packed away,
and a professor told me a couple of years ago that if I want to do a lot of consistent work on the side,
what I should do is dedicate a space
that is always, always there
and ready to just sit down, and pick up where you leave off
and do art until you have to do something else
so that's whatI'm going to do since now I have Tyler's old desk
for my main computer space and everything,
then the other desk is going to be vacated and just a
art space, so I'm excited for that
I've also been going to choir rehearsal again, now that I'm back in town
I was afraid that they didn't want me to go anymore or something just because I've been gone
for over a month.
that was really nice because when I went back, they're like oh
"oh!! it's nice to see you again, you haven't been here for so long"
not that it should matter to me that I'm accepted-
everyone wants to be accepted, that's just human nature
it's really nice to be a part of that group even though
I feel like I don't really belong, just because I haven't known everybody for like twenty years
-they've all been singing together for so long,
but I still I'm just happy to be there
if there's something that you want to do, don't let others stop you by
being intimidated that you're not going to be accepted,
or that you're going to be judged or look down upon, because if you want to do something just do it
because you enjoy it, or you want to try it and
it doesn't require other people liking you or
wanting you to be there for you to enjoy it.
I don't think it makes much of a difference that I'm there, or I'm not there because
I don't sing super loudly, I don't even read music,
I have to listen to my soprano lead to know what note to sing
I just see scribbles,
but I..
still I love music, I love singing,
even though some people on YouTube have commented 'oh god you're so annoying when you sing'
'oh god *blah blah blah*'
there's always gonna be people who want to make those comments,
but then they're also probably the same people who would tell their own friends and family like
'don't care about what others say'
so..
at the end of the day, people are gonna be contradictory.
things are gonna have a good and bad side, and in my situation that is
what I thought,
you know 'I'm here for the music, and I'm here for God'
to be a part of this community
and even if it doesn't really make a difference if I show up or not to the rest of the group,
oh well, I still really enjoy it
so that's what makes a difference to me
and that makes a direct impact
even when I was younger, in high school
and late middle school, I wanted to do gymnastics
and tumbling,
but a lot of times you start young for those athletic things,
so I was like a 13 year old,
taking a class full of six-year-olds.
people were like this tall and there was just me you know,
and all the parents are sitting on the bleachers,
and ..
of course it's not like it never occurred to me, I never felt insecure because I did
the important thing's that I did anyways because I really enjoyed tumbling
and I was grateful that my mom would enroll me in those classes.
I ended up stopping them because my bones lock when I'm trying to stretch,
and my doctor was just like 'oh if you know what's causing it
then just don't do it'- so..
I don't really stretch or try to do the splits anymore
because my toes will lock, or my hip would lock.
if it's one thing that we can all take away,
you know- try to do what you enjoy
and be more sure of yourself because it's very very freeing.
I tend to take a lot of emotional responsibility when I'm not supposed to,
whether it's you know, thinking about how my content impacts my viewers or how my actions
impact my family,
sometimes I take responsibility that I shouldn't and I'm always feeling
burdened, or nervous or
just not good enough.
I realized that I am not as capable as I maybe hope to be,
or want to be and
maybe one day I can grow into that person,
but it's completely draining for me to put guilt on myself or take a lot of responsibility for other people.
something that I always have to remind myself of,
it's not selfish that I put myself first.
if I don't take a step back sometimes,
I'm going to spread myself thin, and
what does that saying that I've been hearing?
" you can't you can't pour from an empty cup "
or something like that?
so.. that's kind of my mindset right now
and I'm really happy and grateful everyday.
I'm excited for food right now, I will say.
this is the last thing I have to do to get ready,
and I'm gonna head out.
I also want to show you Asia, our temporary family member!
she was sleeping so soundly and I woke her up
say hello, this is Asia
she's really dramatic so if she meows she's fine
she sounds exactly like pumkin, except pumkin's a boy
she's a sweetie
but also a big brat.
just to say hi!!
she's so pretty!
hi!
I'm gonna let her go back to sleep.
*muah*
and that brings our chitchat to a close a close-
close?
*close.*
thank you so much for being here,
I always feel a little bit iffy about filming videos where I just talk about myself endlessly,
so thank you so much for being here,
for spending your time here and I'll see you very soon.
sending you my love!
bye!
and there's prairie, hiding in her pram. Hi bebe!
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